I’ve often been more of a loner than anything. Why I keep trying to connect to people blows my mind. I know that in the end, when there is darkness I will be alone. It may be 50 years from now or it could be tonight, but we all die alone. When it does happen I will be alone, so why waste time in this life trying to GRASP onto things that are fleeting? Why waste the time? Nobody actually cares.

Everyone, including myself, are so self-absorbed in their own little worlds that they don’t seem to understand that not everyone is the same. I was told earlier that I am not being honest with myself, because I don’t want events from my past brought to the attention of those that don’t know. I am sorry that you feel that way, but I am honest with myself.

I need not hide behind fashion, culture, music, books, friends, acquaintances or whatever else people choose to associate themselves with. I know who I am. I like who I am. I don’t need to live in the past to know who I am…

I know where I came from and I choose to forget that. It has no bearing on my current life, anymore than a relationship that ended before it started.  I need not plaster my personal life all over everything just to prove my self-worth.

You know who I am?

I’m the type of guy that would fuck you and as soon as I get off, hop out of bed and leave without so much as a kiss my ass.

I’m the type of guy that would put it in your ass without lube and without asking.

I’m the type of guy that when I see another guy wearing girl pants I don’t congratulate him for fitting into a size 0, i beat him to within an inch of his life.

I’m the type of guy that sees two homosexuals (I’d use another word but that’s not PC) holding hands in a mall and tell them that my children don’t need to see that.

I’m the type of guy that tells the hood-rats across the street to slang their dope elsewhere.

I drive a Jeep, own guns, eat meat, play hard, drink hard, and work hard. When it is fitting I fuck my wife hard. 

I am the type of guy that believes that MEN should be the bread-winners and that women should stay home with the kids.

I am the type of guy if given the choice of choosing between a well-educated Hispanic or a brain-dead Anglo. I’m choosing the white guy.

I don’t accept EEO. I don’t accept Affirmative Action. I don’t accept Welfare. I don’t care that you lived in the inner-city. Perhaps a few more drive-bys and you wouldn’t be wasting my time.

I curse; tell my kids to watch t.v.; tell my children how evil Liberals are. I spank my children when they misbehave. I don’t buy tofu, don’t look at art. I work on my Jeep. I don’t care how much it is killing mother earth.

I hate liberals, environmentalists, women, men, people, humanity.

I just don’t care.

I am a bigoted, egotistical, sexist pig. I know what I am…

Do you?

~A